Thursday, August 26, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Steve Byrne - The Byrne Identity - GPS
Laughter wields a lot of power. I saw Steve Byrne (and Owen Benjamin, one of the openers) live at the Irvine Improv yday night with a good friend and good gawd, I kept on drying my eyes during their entire performances. I haven't laughed for that long like I how did in such a loooong time. They were downright hilarious and it's... a blessing. hahaha We can definitely use a lot more laughter in our lives. I don't care if it ruins your makeup (because half of mine was destroyed), but there's waterproof eye makeup now (reference for future shows!!). I'm delighted the show was for 18++ because it was thaaatttt good.
I get hysterical when I laugh. If it's super funny, I turn into a knee-slapper, object-slapper, jump out of my chair, clap, and definitely laugh loudly. I felt (sort of) bad for the person sitting in front of me because the back of her head told me she didn't enjoy it as much as I did. I'm preeeeetty animated. hahaha My high pitched screeching laughter probably annoyed her, but I wouldn't have dialed it down either. At a comedic show, are you kidding? We're there to LAUGH OUT LOUD!! and to tip the comedians with our currency of Laughter Dollars!!
I left the 1 1/2 hr show with my LIQUID eye makeup smeared across my lids and trails down my cheek. Thankfully I stopped by the restroom before leaving the venue bc there were crowds at the box office and event-goers lined around the corner!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Lala Sweet- Goodbye ♫
I've been very happy for the past half week. I attribute this to embracing my looniness amongst my close one.
I feel great. This feels great!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Paulina Rubio - Algo De Ti ♫
I had a very good dinner with some friends tonight. They're such good people and it makes me happy when they feel like they can open up to me. It takes so much courage and trust to be able to share something vulnerable about yourself with someone else. Getting to know them more, being a part of their blossoming lives and seeing them happy makes me happy. It's great!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Trial and errors
It's time! Going to buy my first digital cam-er-a. Yes yes yes. It's a hassle borrowing others'.
I color my own hair, touch up my own roots, trim my own bangs and the ends of my hair. It's satisfying knowing I can do these things myself... and getting better at it. I obviously haven't mastered techniques, but my results are as much as I can hope for! I haven't gone to the salon in the past several months to have any of the listed fixed, so yes, I am happy! Even happier that I'm saving sooooo much money. I was hesitant to have my hair dyed at the salon because I knew it's going to be expensive, but I caved in for a new look for my bday. After coloring my hair at a salon, I find THE hair dye that lightens dark hair color without using bleach. Imagine the relief I felt after my visit and trial and errors!!
Taking care of your image doesn't have to be costly-- you just have to care enough to do it yourself (if you're tight on budget). I'm proud of my parents and what they gave me, so I'm going to wear at amplified levels and smile (more)!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Summertime!!
It's summertime and I get to show more skin! I've always loved this season. I know many who don't because of excessive perspiration and not being able to cool down under many attempts, but!! I don't mind it so much! I love the bright sunlight and scent of a warm morning. Seasons have these scents that smell absolutely delightful. Summer began two weeks ago but the sun is finally starting to rise earlier and brighter. I'm happy! I get so happy when the sun is out. It exudes such happiness. Funny thing is, I rarely sunbathe. haha My legs are "as white as milk" and definitely, 100% reflect sunlight. I can't look at my own legs in the sun. hahaha but I don't carrrrrrrrre. It is what it is, I haven't had a problem with my legs, so I never cared what other people said about their paleness. Some things you grow used to and then some others you wouldn't care to think over. I would have been so much more insecure had I cared about every inch of my body-- its color, shape, size, etc. I like my legs (I don't know if others do [never cared to ask!]) and that's all that matters! They're mine, I like them, and no matter what they say, it's not going to change the fact that I like them. It gets annoying to hear it every so often, so I just make a joke out of it. How many times are others going to point out our differences in our lifetime? Plenty, bc there's no clone! As of yet.
HAPPY SUMMER!!
Friday, July 2, 2010
Here is a hand to hold
How is it possible that in one moment you are here and in the next second you are gone? Death has always scared and saddened me. It's not that any of my loved ones have passed, but I weep reading celebrity suicides-- most prominently in the Korean entertainment industry. I first read of Lee Eun-joo's (Pheonix) passing, followed by models and other actors (most recently Park Yong-ha) and actresses. I see their pictures posted on the articles and it baffles me that their bright smiles will never be tactile again. They're all painted memories in the form of pictures now. Looking at their pictures, I put together an image in my head of their full stature and feel the pounding of their heartbeats and the sound of their breaths. How, in one instant can all of that be taken away and all that is left is a still form? It pains me that they underwent such excruciating pain and depression to have resorted to commit suicide. I obviously never knew them personally, but their works of art through film and television brought their presence towards me. The sound of their laughter to the happy image of their smile to the sound of their voices. It's such a sad thought that-- despite myself never having met them-- they aren't here to grace the world with their presence that they never knew others would have accepted despite their personal problems.
I stopped going to church some years ago because I do not believe in God; however, I will pray for their spirits and send out my good wishes to those who have passed. I pray and hope that no one else commits suicide. I just wish those who want to attempt it know that they are more loved than they think and will continue to have their loved ones love them even if they have problems. Depression is a monster that consumes anyone, so please, don't feel like you are the only one being eaten alive. Please consult with your loved ones, if not, please consult with a doctor and I am plenty sure that he/she will be more than willing to help. Death is such a depressing way to "resolve" a situation because the biggest factor that resides is that you will not be here to hug, laugh w/, and be that one person to be w/ to embrace whatever else life gives you. Your presence is sooo much more important. You may be one of a million people who are living on this earth, but that does not make you any less significant than the others. You most likely touched the lives of those who are in your life and have met without knowing it simply because we often times don't tell you how special and happy you've made them. On my end, I withhold these types of compliments as I fear it would make you cocky. Never think that the world would be "better off w/o you." If you are surrounded by people who are unappreciative of your presence, befriend those who make you happy. We are often discouraged by negative people in our lives, so please move forward and leave them behind. My one wish would be to not involve yourself in a gang. I can see how it is a family, but the deaths that come hand in hand with it is heartbreaking. You can find friends who will accept you with open arms rather than through torturous initiations. You can find friends who can fill your heart with love that you don't have to go around w/ hatred to kill others. There is so much sadness in the world as it is already, give yourself the purpose to lighten up the lives of others. Negativity has a lot of (bad) power, so please don't give it any more fuel.
Independence Day is this weekend and I am thankful for my freedom. In the US, I can do whatever I want without as much limitations that exist in other nations. I've taken it for granted for so long that I've just realized it when someone had mentioned it to me. I can do soooo much more but didn't realize it because I was born here and haven't seen how it is like in other walks of life. For the freedom that I have in the United States, I must live my life and be as great as I want to be.
This is Sunny Choi. She arranged Train's "If It's Love" into this melodic and serene piece; she is a great musician/ pianist whose music brings a smile to my heart.
I stopped going to church some years ago because I do not believe in God; however, I will pray for their spirits and send out my good wishes to those who have passed. I pray and hope that no one else commits suicide. I just wish those who want to attempt it know that they are more loved than they think and will continue to have their loved ones love them even if they have problems. Depression is a monster that consumes anyone, so please, don't feel like you are the only one being eaten alive. Please consult with your loved ones, if not, please consult with a doctor and I am plenty sure that he/she will be more than willing to help. Death is such a depressing way to "resolve" a situation because the biggest factor that resides is that you will not be here to hug, laugh w/, and be that one person to be w/ to embrace whatever else life gives you. Your presence is sooo much more important. You may be one of a million people who are living on this earth, but that does not make you any less significant than the others. You most likely touched the lives of those who are in your life and have met without knowing it simply because we often times don't tell you how special and happy you've made them. On my end, I withhold these types of compliments as I fear it would make you cocky. Never think that the world would be "better off w/o you." If you are surrounded by people who are unappreciative of your presence, befriend those who make you happy. We are often discouraged by negative people in our lives, so please move forward and leave them behind. My one wish would be to not involve yourself in a gang. I can see how it is a family, but the deaths that come hand in hand with it is heartbreaking. You can find friends who will accept you with open arms rather than through torturous initiations. You can find friends who can fill your heart with love that you don't have to go around w/ hatred to kill others. There is so much sadness in the world as it is already, give yourself the purpose to lighten up the lives of others. Negativity has a lot of (bad) power, so please don't give it any more fuel.
Independence Day is this weekend and I am thankful for my freedom. In the US, I can do whatever I want without as much limitations that exist in other nations. I've taken it for granted for so long that I've just realized it when someone had mentioned it to me. I can do soooo much more but didn't realize it because I was born here and haven't seen how it is like in other walks of life. For the freedom that I have in the United States, I must live my life and be as great as I want to be.
This is Sunny Choi. She arranged Train's "If It's Love" into this melodic and serene piece;
Sunday, June 20, 2010
♫
I l.o.v.e. spending time w/ those whom I can be completely myself. There's so much freedom and joy when I'm embraced by their presence b/c there's no pressure to be reserved. There are those few special friends that I connect w/ who allow me to be sooo freeeeeee and at ease.
On another note, music is one sure thing that puts me at ease. It enraptures me and carries me into a new world where I'm at center stage spinning in delightful rounds as music notes bounce off of my aura. My heart smiles, dances, smiles and dances; I can't see myself w/o it.
On another note, music is one sure thing that puts me at ease. It enraptures me and carries me into a new world where I'm at center stage spinning in delightful rounds as music notes bounce off of my aura. My heart smiles, dances, smiles and dances; I can't see myself w/o it.
♫
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Ask the right questions
I've been on a mindful and long questioning period trying to figure out how I wanted to plan my future. It was frightful b/c I didn't want to take the "wrong" step; then, I learned that there is no wrong step, since I'd gain experience as is anyway. I wouldn't lose out on anything because I'd actually gain what I hadn't thought to. (Positive outlook! *thumbs up*) I came across this statement that turned on my light bulb:
Don't ask "what do I do?" rather, ask "what am I good at?"
It's always been a matter of me wanting to successfully make it into the work force that made me concentrate solely on the former. I've asked myself the latter question and hadn't responded well b/c I truly didn't have anything I was good at-- until recently.
I also came across a Buddhist proverb that sums up my past two months: "When the student is ready, the teacher will appear."
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Deck of Cards
Beauty and Fashion! I adore simplicity and how small details such as one's hair, make-up, and accessories complete an outfit. There's so much variety in styles and color we can opt for!
Wwwork it out!
B&F
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Photoshop
My head went into a frenzy when I stumbled across someone's blog. The blogger is a self-professed camera whore. I don't blame her, though, because she looks like such a doll! So fricken youthful w/ bright pink, doll-like blush, hugely enhanced eyes (contacts), doll-like hair and make-up. I was SO impressed and in awe! She was so cute!!! Then, of course, social media outlets lead me to her other site and goddamn, my eyes popped out and I kept my eyes glued to the screen. "THAT'S HER, TOO??? No..... can't be. She doesn't look like that.... kind of. Is that REALLY her??? She has the same hair, her makeup style is the same.... But she looked so cute in her pictures!!!!!"
Ya, you guessed it. Her pictures were edited on Photoshop and the end results were astonishing!!! The latter site I visited posted her videos (!!!) and the differences between her pics and vids were soooo obvious. Yowza. She edited her face and body so much I couldn't tell she was the same person in her videos. It took me a good few minutes to analyze and process what I was seeing. Pretty awful! I haven't gotten over how ballsy she is to fix up her pictures like that. She also had plastic surgery done and oh my gawd, she looked so much younger pre-opt. ASDLFKAJSF
YOWZA!
I thought I was in for a treat only to realize it was fake! So many pictures (through social media, magazines, etc) are edited so the person in the photo looks manufactured. I should have known better! but her photoshop skills are crazy!! It's crazy how entranced we are by the pictures we see on the web or magazines. Yes, I've fallen for them as well. They're not 100% natural/ real unless otherwise stated (ie. Kim Kardashian, Jessica Simpson). It's such an unhealthy habit for us to obsess over how beautiful celebs look when their published pictures are almost always edited and transformed. What's the percentage of you meeting them in person to confirm their size, "slenderness," "perfect arms, legs, abs," etc? We're all fooled so we would obsess over them to support their career, don't you think? They capture our attention by making their stars look flawless, but who the hell is w/o flaws???
Don't obsess over what you see on the 'net (esp. celebs, models and some bloggers(!)). Majority of the time their features are edited and literally enhanced! Don't be down on yourself because you don't look anything like they do. They don't even look like themselves, so how can you possibly be down about yourself when what you obsess over is fake and unrealistic?
Work it out,
Natural
Ya, you guessed it. Her pictures were edited on Photoshop and the end results were astonishing!!! The latter site I visited posted her videos (!!!) and the differences between her pics and vids were soooo obvious. Yowza. She edited her face and body so much I couldn't tell she was the same person in her videos. It took me a good few minutes to analyze and process what I was seeing. Pretty awful! I haven't gotten over how ballsy she is to fix up her pictures like that. She also had plastic surgery done and oh my gawd, she looked so much younger pre-opt. ASDLFKAJSF
YOWZA!
I thought I was in for a treat only to realize it was fake! So many pictures (through social media, magazines, etc) are edited so the person in the photo looks manufactured. I should have known better! but her photoshop skills are crazy!! It's crazy how entranced we are by the pictures we see on the web or magazines. Yes, I've fallen for them as well. They're not 100% natural/ real unless otherwise stated (ie. Kim Kardashian, Jessica Simpson). It's such an unhealthy habit for us to obsess over how beautiful celebs look when their published pictures are almost always edited and transformed. What's the percentage of you meeting them in person to confirm their size, "slenderness," "perfect arms, legs, abs," etc? We're all fooled so we would obsess over them to support their career, don't you think? They capture our attention by making their stars look flawless, but who the hell is w/o flaws???
Don't obsess over what you see on the 'net (esp. celebs, models and some bloggers(!)). Majority of the time their features are edited and literally enhanced! Don't be down on yourself because you don't look anything like they do. They don't even look like themselves, so how can you possibly be down about yourself when what you obsess over is fake and unrealistic?
Work it out,
Natural
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Celebrity gossip
I am so sick of hearing about LiLo and Speidi! They're insanely ridiculous and should consider relocating outside of LA. Their crazy antics are sure signs they're troubled by fame and stardom. None of them have it! Why can't they understand that and move on? Certainly they have the money to invest their time elsewhere. So much media cover them that they're bad representations for young women (ie. SERIOUS BODY, SELF-ESTEEM, AND SELF-WORTH ISSUES). Outsiders looking in see that they're destroying their lives by seeking sooooo much attention. Go to rehab and get out of LA. Learn to love yourself and stop treating yourselves so badly!!
I read celeb gossip partially b/c certain celebs' success stories and achievements serve as inspirations for me to excel and do my best work. Neither LiLo or Speidi work as inspiring figures for anyone. They probably aren't trying to but why live such a wreck of lives and broadcast them to millions of others? Did you want our pity b/c you created your own wreck? You obviously want money and attention, but how do you love yourself for your "hard work" when you're working to also diminish what you have?
I read celeb gossip partially b/c certain celebs' success stories and achievements serve as inspirations for me to excel and do my best work. Neither LiLo or Speidi work as inspiring figures for anyone. They probably aren't trying to but why live such a wreck of lives and broadcast them to millions of others? Did you want our pity b/c you created your own wreck? You obviously want money and attention, but how do you love yourself for your "hard work" when you're working to also diminish what you have?
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Cleft lip and palate
On a random outburst, I decided to go onto YouTube to look up cleft lip and palate. There are actually videos on there! I didn't think there would be, since I've known YT primarily for its makeup tutorials and music videos. Anyhow, those videos range from their life experiences to before and after pictures.
Being born with CLP took a major emotional toll on me. I saw videos of others who live their lives like CLP hadn't impacted them. I was totally wowed because I felt like my childhood was an emotional wreck. One particular speaker exuded so much confidence as she spoke about CLP that it took me by surprise. I wondered why I had ever given my facial deformity so much power to take me down to a state of depression and to shut myself out of the world. WHY DID I DO THAT TO MYSELF? Appearance in that aspect seems soooooo trivial. It is absolutely important to take care of ourselves, otherwise we'd waste our once- in- a- lifetime youth BUT! to give appearance the power to bring us to a state of depression? to shut us down and not make friends? to not enjoy what the world has to offer? to not play sports? WHY must we give appearance SO MUCH POWER??? I am angry! Anger won't do me any good right now b/c I can't do anything to change the past 20 years, but I do have right now and my years ahead of me to make those friends and enjoy life's excitements. As I was browsing through the videos I realized that the severity of my CLP was not as bad as others. Mine looks pretty darn GOOD after comparing it. Having only seen four others in my life w/ CLP, I felt alienated and isolated. I didn't know there was a small community on YT, and definitely didn't know any other female going through the same path as I was. I felt so alone in it! Looking back, the random people I've seen w/ CLP weren't severe. Even then, I didn't know what severity levels existed. It's unfortunate that I have to compare it to others to realize how I look is better than OKAY, but that was how it was. Looking more asymmetric than others fool w/ your mind. It made me think that I looked pretty bad. Comparing myself to others was a bad idea. It is a completely bad idea for anyone.
Feeling pretty should really be based on how we feel about ourselves rather than how we think others see us. It's one of the most painful things to do: trying to see ourselves in others' perspectives. We hurt ourselves as we ASSume others' thoughts and critiques. We are so absolutely awful to ourselves when we do this. It's awful that we are our worst critics. Obsession w/ looking even better than others is sick, too. We can't compare ourselves to others as we are not the same. If you have an identical twin, comparing yourself to her/him is just as useless. Our creativity and minds were not created to function in unison. You will have different preferences, which will show physically through makeup and fashion. Furthermore, genetics! Nobody is an exact carbon copy! General weight, height, and body size/shape differences. Comparing ourselves to others can make us feel better after knowing we're in a more fortunate situation than them, but if the extremity of comparing ourselves to others negatively effect our self-esteem and confidence-- then let go of that! We're sometimes masochists who love to indulge in self-pity and pain. Ridiculous.
We're unique. We're different. We're each an individual. We're one of a kind. No other is like us. There's no comparison. We just need to truly appreciate ourselves and believe that how we are is blessed because tons of thousands are not as fortunate as us.
When I was much younger, I was so obsessed and involved w/ how my CLP made me look so different that I didn't look beyond it. I was never curious about others who had CLP. I've only seen FOUR in my 20 years! I didn't think there were many here! That's why CLP vloggers caught me by surprise. What I had known was God had given me a deformed face. I questioned Him so many times why it had to be me. Why he had done this to me? Talk about self-loathing, self-pity, and acting like the victim and doing nothing to fix my helplessness. I never told any of my friends my journey through CLP b/c I didn't want their pity. I didn't want them to treat me any different than they were treating their other friends, but in return, I pitied myself and treated my OWN self differently. I did not realize that until tonight. This is twisted! I am still enraged by my past actions and thoughts, but these lessons are learned.
Lesson 1: Do not, under any circumstance, compare yourself to others so you can indulge in self-loathe and pity.
Lesson 2: Each of us are more fortunate than tens of thousands others, so we must not have to compare to learn that; we must appreciate what we have.
Lesson 3: Never give your appearance any destructive power.
Working it out,
Lessons
Being born with CLP took a major emotional toll on me. I saw videos of others who live their lives like CLP hadn't impacted them. I was totally wowed because I felt like my childhood was an emotional wreck. One particular speaker exuded so much confidence as she spoke about CLP that it took me by surprise. I wondered why I had ever given my facial deformity so much power to take me down to a state of depression and to shut myself out of the world. WHY DID I DO THAT TO MYSELF? Appearance in that aspect seems soooooo trivial. It is absolutely important to take care of ourselves, otherwise we'd waste our once- in- a- lifetime youth BUT! to give appearance the power to bring us to a state of depression? to shut us down and not make friends? to not enjoy what the world has to offer? to not play sports? WHY must we give appearance SO MUCH POWER??? I am angry! Anger won't do me any good right now b/c I can't do anything to change the past 20 years, but I do have right now and my years ahead of me to make those friends and enjoy life's excitements. As I was browsing through the videos I realized that the severity of my CLP was not as bad as others. Mine looks pretty darn GOOD after comparing it. Having only seen four others in my life w/ CLP, I felt alienated and isolated. I didn't know there was a small community on YT, and definitely didn't know any other female going through the same path as I was. I felt so alone in it! Looking back, the random people I've seen w/ CLP weren't severe. Even then, I didn't know what severity levels existed. It's unfortunate that I have to compare it to others to realize how I look is better than OKAY, but that was how it was. Looking more asymmetric than others fool w/ your mind. It made me think that I looked pretty bad. Comparing myself to others was a bad idea. It is a completely bad idea for anyone.
Feeling pretty should really be based on how we feel about ourselves rather than how we think others see us. It's one of the most painful things to do: trying to see ourselves in others' perspectives. We hurt ourselves as we ASSume others' thoughts and critiques. We are so absolutely awful to ourselves when we do this. It's awful that we are our worst critics. Obsession w/ looking even better than others is sick, too. We can't compare ourselves to others as we are not the same. If you have an identical twin, comparing yourself to her/him is just as useless. Our creativity and minds were not created to function in unison. You will have different preferences, which will show physically through makeup and fashion. Furthermore, genetics! Nobody is an exact carbon copy! General weight, height, and body size/shape differences. Comparing ourselves to others can make us feel better after knowing we're in a more fortunate situation than them, but if the extremity of comparing ourselves to others negatively effect our self-esteem and confidence-- then let go of that! We're sometimes masochists who love to indulge in self-pity and pain. Ridiculous.
We're unique. We're different. We're each an individual. We're one of a kind. No other is like us. There's no comparison. We just need to truly appreciate ourselves and believe that how we are is blessed because tons of thousands are not as fortunate as us.
When I was much younger, I was so obsessed and involved w/ how my CLP made me look so different that I didn't look beyond it. I was never curious about others who had CLP. I've only seen FOUR in my 20 years! I didn't think there were many here! That's why CLP vloggers caught me by surprise. What I had known was God had given me a deformed face. I questioned Him so many times why it had to be me. Why he had done this to me? Talk about self-loathing, self-pity, and acting like the victim and doing nothing to fix my helplessness. I never told any of my friends my journey through CLP b/c I didn't want their pity. I didn't want them to treat me any different than they were treating their other friends, but in return, I pitied myself and treated my OWN self differently. I did not realize that until tonight. This is twisted! I am still enraged by my past actions and thoughts, but these lessons are learned.
Lesson 1: Do not, under any circumstance, compare yourself to others so you can indulge in self-loathe and pity.
Lesson 2: Each of us are more fortunate than tens of thousands others, so we must not have to compare to learn that; we must appreciate what we have.
Lesson 3: Never give your appearance any destructive power.
Working it out,
Lessons
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Live, Overcome, (pre)Vail, Embrace.
My life has been changing lately. I feel it within myself and see it in how I look. I've finally embraced my appearance and have been so much happier in these past few weeks. I've stopped convincing myself that I look "all right" and not "ugly." I can feel it from my core. This subject matter is one of the things you can't convince yourself of until you truly believe it.
My style has taken a turn since I've come to full acceptance of what I was born with. I wear my make-up differently and dress less sloppily. I am taking care of myself. Once I accepted and embraced myself, I've realized that I must take care of myself because 1) I only live once (duh!) and 2) I will never, ever, ever, everrrrr be or look this young again. Time passes by too quickly for me to take care of myself "later." By that time, I'd have lost this youthfulness. I can't let my youth slip between my fingers when I only get to be this young once. We all need to take care of ourselves so others don't need to.
By means of taking care of myself, I am not turning into a narcissistic and vain 20 year-old. Rather, I am playing up what I've got to the best I can make it.
I ♡ my physical form.
Do you?
Working it out,
Love
My style has taken a turn since I've come to full acceptance of what I was born with. I wear my make-up differently and dress less sloppily. I am taking care of myself. Once I accepted and embraced myself, I've realized that I must take care of myself because 1) I only live once (duh!) and 2) I will never, ever, ever, everrrrr be or look this young again. Time passes by too quickly for me to take care of myself "later." By that time, I'd have lost this youthfulness. I can't let my youth slip between my fingers when I only get to be this young once. We all need to take care of ourselves so others don't need to.
By means of taking care of myself, I am not turning into a narcissistic and vain 20 year-old. Rather, I am playing up what I've got to the best I can make it.
I ♡ my physical form.
Do you?
Working it out,
Love
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
☀Spring 2010☀
This Spring has ought to be my most amazing Spring ever. I'm blossoming with the season and it couldn't be any better! I love coincidences like this (Spring season= blossom season, growth, birth; me= feeling the same way)... and seeing and feeling everything fit and work together.
I am sooooo happy right now. I don't want this to be temporary!
Through all of this, feeling the change scares me. I'm not used to it, but it'll lead to better, so I've got to get on it.
Workin' it out,
Happy
I am sooooo happy right now. I don't want this to be temporary!
Through all of this, feeling the change scares me. I'm not used to it, but it'll lead to better, so I've got to get on it.
Workin' it out,
Happy
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
"Someone's sitting in the shade today because someone planted a tree a long time ago." Warren Buffett
Let's plant seeds every day of our lives.
Friday, May 7, 2010
Inked
My Lotus flowers are almost two weeks old, and I am extremely pleased with the outcome.
I love tattoos, especially when it has meaning and significance. I really don't understand some of what I've seen, but their bodies aren't mine, so it's not my concern.
I breezed through an article I found on yahoo about people's reactions and thoughts towards this art form. I never felt so passionately aggravated by reading those people's comments!! especially when there are those who say that getting tattoos is a "trend" and we should be prepared to bleat with the rest of the crowd. "To be a LEADER and NOT a follower." How EXACTLY does that apply here? Tattooing dates 5,000 years back, so what is it that you want to say? That you're an idiot? It's the 21st century, of course the purpose and reasoning of getting tattoos have evolved, but it's not a TREND that came into place through thin air.
It's understandable that you don't like tattoos but don't be close-minded. Everyone who has gotten a tattoo or multiple tattoos do not get them for the mere SAKE OF BEING "IN THE TREND." That's the most ridiculous thing I've heard. If someone got it done for this purpose, so be it. He/she'll deal with whatever problem arises. In the end, it's his/her personal problem and no one else's, so to those condemning the general crowd of inked people, STOP BEING SO SHALLOW. Some tattoos consist of importance and meaning, and simply do not serve a single purpose of being "pretty" body decor. I became more and more irritated when commenters were describing women with tattoos as "whores, sluts, and white trash." Really? Really? Stop generalizing. I do admit that I've seen some tacky tattoos, but stop with the ridicule! It's not your body to worry about, so refrain from being an asshole.
Do look beyond the surface.
I love tattoos, especially when it has meaning and significance. I really don't understand some of what I've seen, but their bodies aren't mine, so it's not my concern.
I breezed through an article I found on yahoo about people's reactions and thoughts towards this art form. I never felt so passionately aggravated by reading those people's comments!! especially when there are those who say that getting tattoos is a "trend" and we should be prepared to bleat with the rest of the crowd. "To be a LEADER and NOT a follower." How EXACTLY does that apply here? Tattooing dates 5,000 years back, so what is it that you want to say? That you're an idiot? It's the 21st century, of course the purpose and reasoning of getting tattoos have evolved, but it's not a TREND that came into place through thin air.
It's understandable that you don't like tattoos but don't be close-minded. Everyone who has gotten a tattoo or multiple tattoos do not get them for the mere SAKE OF BEING "IN THE TREND." That's the most ridiculous thing I've heard. If someone got it done for this purpose, so be it. He/she'll deal with whatever problem arises. In the end, it's his/her personal problem and no one else's, so to those condemning the general crowd of inked people, STOP BEING SO SHALLOW. Some tattoos consist of importance and meaning, and simply do not serve a single purpose of being "pretty" body decor. I became more and more irritated when commenters were describing women with tattoos as "whores, sluts, and white trash." Really? Really? Stop generalizing. I do admit that I've seen some tacky tattoos, but stop with the ridicule! It's not your body to worry about, so refrain from being an asshole.
Do look beyond the surface.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Space and time
I woke up some minutes ago from a dream I'd like to physically be in. I was a couple of hours away from boarding a plane to Madrid for a short school session; my stay would have lasted 2 whole weeks. All the while getting ready, I contemplated whether or not to purchase a camera. What? I don't have a digital camera like every other person on this planet?
Yeah, I don't own one.
wio,
Marian
Yeah, I don't own one.
wio,
Marian
Sprouting
My long awaited appointment to get my Lotus done is FINALLY around the CORNER!!
FASHION.
I've been fascinated with this realm lately: small things from shiny, bright city lights to tall, striking models and their poses to photography and essentially everything beauty (i.e. self-esteem, confidence, Dove's Campaign For Real Beauty). I hardly ever develop interests/ hobbies/ likes/ favorites, so I am happy to have found something that is satisfying.
I saw my first The City episode this evening. It's gotten me enamored with its high-fashion, designer clothes, $$$$, city lights (looove city lights), and background music (haha it pulls everything together). The production team surely made it desirable. I've been sold!
I'm pondering if my piqued interest in this is purely a hobby or something more.
CLOTHES.
I wore an extremely ill-fitted pair of jeans today, some sizes too big (used to fit them 3 years ago). I have felt uncomfortable in jeans before (size too tight, big, short, zipper coming undone) but I felt completely thrown off today. It was loose everywhere. I couldn't find my belt this morning (short on time) so they were slipping off my waist. The looseness in my thigh areas was the worst. Wearing them aggravated me so much! made going about my day awful.
Clothes do matter. Those that fit make a huge difference. We stand taller, walk straighter and do them both with a little more confidence; our focal point is shifted from keeping our clothes in place and worrying if others see our discomfort to what we should be doing, so yes, it's important to wear clothes that fit and flatter!
wio,
Marian
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Like a kick to the shin
I don't like myself right now. I know better to take this criticism to improve myself, but it still hurts. I am absolutely that boring.
"It wasn't that great, but it wasn't that bad." Say, what a great first impression.
"It wasn't that great, but it wasn't that bad." Say, what a great first impression.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Life experience
Do people with a decade's worth of age difference really get a long? Have they really both experienced as much as each other to be able to get along that well?
Friday, March 26, 2010
Defining "beauty"
It's an obscure word, isn't it? Abstract, too. Societal norms mark highly on this term and so many people have been negatively affected by it. How are you supposed to live in a society where judgment is always being cast? Sure, people say they don't judge, but honestly & for the most part, they're trying to make themselves appear to be nice and good. Have you ever looked at someone and remarked upon how a certain feature or another looks less than beautiful? It's automatic that we cast our opinions about how others look. Unfortunately, very few of us have the confidence to rise above negativity to comfort our own self to see that our own beauty is beautiful.
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