Juanes - Para Tu Amor ♫

Talent is sexy-- whatever it is that you possess.

Paulina Rubio - Algo De Ti ♫

I had a very good dinner with some friends tonight. They're such good people and it makes me happy when they feel like they can open up to me. It takes so much courage and trust to be able to share something vulnerable about yourself with someone else. Getting to know them more, being a part of their blossoming lives and seeing them happy makes me happy. It's great!

Addicted.

Enrique Iglesias (featuring Juan Luis Guerra)- Cuando Me Enamoro

Trial and errors

It's time! Going to buy my first digital cam-er-a. Yes yes yes. It's a hassle borrowing others'.

I color my own hair, touch up my own roots, trim my own bangs and the ends of my hair. It's satisfying knowing I can do these things myself... and getting better at it. I obviously haven't mastered techniques, but my results are as much as I can hope for! I haven't gone to the salon in the past several months to have any of the listed fixed, so yes, I am happy! Even happier that I'm saving sooooo much money. I was hesitant to have my hair dyed at the salon because I knew it's going to be expensive, but I caved in for a new look for my bday. After coloring my hair at a salon, I find THE hair dye that lightens dark hair color without using bleach. Imagine the relief I felt after my visit and trial and errors!!

Taking care of your image doesn't have to be costly-- you just have to care enough to do it yourself (if you're tight on budget).  I'm proud of my parents and what they gave me, so I'm going to wear at amplified levels and smile (more)!

♫ My element ♫

Summertime!!

It's summertime and I get to show more skin! I've always loved this season. I know many who don't because of excessive perspiration and not being able to cool down under many attempts, but!! I don't mind it so much! I love the bright sunlight and scent of a warm morning. Seasons have these scents that smell absolutely delightful. Summer began two weeks ago but the sun is finally starting to rise earlier and brighter. I'm happy! I get so happy when the sun is out. It exudes such happiness. Funny thing is, I rarely sunbathe. haha My legs are "as white as milk" and definitely, 100% reflect sunlight. I can't look at my own legs in the sun. hahaha but I don't carrrrrrrrre. It is what it is, I haven't had a problem with my legs, so I never cared what other people said about their paleness. Some things you grow used to and then some others you wouldn't care to think over. I would have been so much more insecure had I cared about every inch of my body-- its color, shape, size, etc. I like my legs (I don't know if others do [never cared to ask!]) and that's all that matters! They're mine, I like them, and no matter what they say, it's not going to change the fact that I like them. It gets annoying to hear it every so often, so I just make a joke out of it. How many times are others going to point out our differences in our lifetime? Plenty, bc there's no clone! As of yet.

HAPPY SUMMER!!

Here is a hand to hold

How is it possible that in one moment you are here and in the next second you are gone? Death has always scared and saddened me. It's not that any of my loved ones have passed, but I weep reading celebrity suicides-- most prominently in the Korean entertainment industry. I first read of Lee Eun-joo's (Pheonix) passing, followed by models and other actors (most recently Park Yong-ha) and actresses. I see their pictures posted on the articles and it baffles me that their bright smiles will never be tactile again. They're all painted memories in the form of pictures now. Looking at their pictures, I put together an image in my head of their full stature and feel the pounding of their heartbeats and the sound of their breaths. How, in one instant can all of that be taken away and all that is left is a still form? It pains me that they underwent such excruciating pain and depression to have resorted to commit suicide. I obviously never knew them personally, but their works of art through film and television brought their presence towards me. The sound of their laughter to the happy image of their smile to the sound of their voices. It's such a sad thought that-- despite myself never having met them-- they aren't here to grace the world with their presence that they never knew others would have accepted despite their personal problems.

I stopped going to church some years ago because I do not believe in God; however, I will pray for their spirits and send out my good wishes to those who have passed. I pray and hope that no one else commits suicide. I just wish those who want to attempt it know that they are more loved than they think and will continue to have their loved ones love them even if they have problems. Depression is a monster that consumes anyone, so please, don't feel like you are the only one being eaten alive. Please consult with your loved ones, if not, please consult with a doctor and I am plenty sure that he/she will be more than willing to help. Death is such a depressing way to "resolve" a situation because the biggest factor that resides is that you will not be here to hug, laugh w/, and be that one person to be w/ to embrace whatever else life gives you. Your presence is sooo much more important. You may be one of a million people who are living on this earth, but that does not make you any less significant than the others. You most likely touched the lives of those who are in your life and have met without knowing it simply because we often times don't tell you how special and happy you've made them. On my end, I withhold these types of compliments as I fear it would make you cocky. Never think that the world would be "better off w/o you." If you are surrounded by people who are unappreciative of your presence, befriend those who make you happy. We are often discouraged by negative people in our lives, so please move forward and leave them behind. My one wish would be to not involve yourself in a gang. I can see how it is a family, but the deaths that come hand in hand with it is heartbreaking. You can find friends who will accept you with open arms rather than through torturous initiations. You can find friends who can fill your heart with love that you don't have to go around w/ hatred to kill others. There is so much sadness in the world as it is already, give yourself the purpose to lighten up the lives of others. Negativity has a lot of (bad) power, so please don't give it any more fuel.

Independence Day is this weekend and I am thankful for my freedom. In the US, I can do whatever I want without as much limitations that exist in other nations. I've taken it for granted for so long that I've just realized it when someone had mentioned it to me. I can do soooo much more but didn't realize it because I was born here and haven't seen how it is like in other walks of life. For the freedom that I have in the United States, I must live my life and be as great as I want to be.




This is Sunny Choi. She arranged Train's "If It's Love" into this melodic and serene piece; she is a great musician/ pianist whose music brings a smile to my heart.